Change can hurt

I wonder who that girl is?

Recently people have been coming to my tagboard and encouraging me to push on, I cried so hard when I read them yesterday because I was so moved by their random acts of kindness. It really made me feel so much less lonely and it gave me hope. When I'm at pit bottom, These things do pull me up. Even if it's just the slightest bit, It rlly makes me feel better. Sending out all the love I have to these people with such beautiful hearts. :')

I am quitting school, The thought kinda scares me. I'm so scared that I won't have to courage to go back ever again... What am I going to do then? What if I'm stuck down here for good?

Tomorrow, I have my next appointment with my therapist/psychologist. Oh my god, I'm panicking like fuckshit alot. Doctor previously told me to think of sth I wanted to do for the first 2omins and we'd do it tgt, But I srsly have no idea. I'm a nervous wreck. Never thought it'd come this way, Never imagined myself this way..

My mind runs, And I can never catch it even if I get a head start. An empty day, Though clear and bright, Is just as dark as any n9.. :) Good afternoon broken hearts! Lets all hope for the hopeless. Back to twitter now, Follow me @invisiblepains please! Thanks loads.

Much love to all, From Irina. :)

Everytime I think that I am getting close,

I find myself further away than I have ever been before